No Need to Shit Yer Pants

yea so tonight i got off werk at 10pm, came home changed, met sharon at the bethpage house PAPILAND, dropped off my car, picked up chris stopped at charles ave BREIFLY and saw laura, she wasnt werking but suuuure was drunk, went to some chicks house in seaford, got tippsy, okay so i was a little drunk A LITTLE, SHUT UP SHARON U FUCK! sharon dropped chris off, had to pee really bad, stopped at d&d, no one was in the place excpet the guy werking, he asked me if i could pee with the door open, what the fuck is that? weirdo. refused to give him my #, he wants to go out with me allie and sharon..clubbing..riiiiight. and we met5 up with allie where i proceeded to want to pass the fuck out in the back seat but there were too manny homosexuals..well not real ones, but u kno what i mean.. around the car..yes with club hair...which is so out. so out out out out out out. and well yes, i am off tomorrow, and yes i am off the next day..whoop whoop.. i got the weekend. its da freakin weekind baby bout tah have me some fun. my belly hurts. its on fire. oh i love bella. and i love my friends. and i love you. okay so right now im in plainjew at sharons house, why u ask? cause she fuckin takes to long too get ready.. and she tells me i take forever? yeh right mothafucka, shes prancing around her room in her fuggin bathrobe, arent u jealous. anyways, i dunno what the deal is, i kno tonight is beer pong night at charles ave, the boys will be there, and laura is werking, but kathy the owner had some issues last night about underagers..which i have no idea why, i heard she wasnt busted or anything, perhaps she was just on crack or something, who knos, laura shaid she had no idea what was up with her last night, but she was totally on our side about the situation. anyways, i dunno if allie is hanging out or not, she been kida distant lately, yes allie i kno yer gonna read the LJ, what up wit ya chica? everything okay? we miss you! anywho, i found out lliz and athina are alive, thats good i suppose. liz and nicole are goin to cancun in like a week, woo lucky them. JT quit sprout, what the hell is that? maybe he did it cause he wants to go on tour with asob, hmm sprout or asob? hmmmm. okay im gonna stop that right now b4 i get into trouble. but at the moment i dont give a fuck. i just wanna go out already. i have the urge to see a movie, not tonight though..more like tomorrow.i havent gone in sucha longtime. what to do what to do. Sharin excepted a collect call from someone like 50 hours ago and she still on the phone. lordy child, lordy. anyways im gonna go. ONE!

Butt

i just woke up. Came home last night wrote in the livejournal, did some other things. Found out some stuff, wasnt bothered by it though..last night. But here I am now, and the more i think about it the more it bothers me. Though it really shouldnt. well maybe it should, yea..or else i wouldnt have gotten an apology right? its the normal thing to be bothered. but i sooo wanna be that person that doesnt give a crap about anything. Thats the person I live to be one day. In my head its like "it matters. no it doesnt, yea, no." Im highly confused cause i have my reasons to care and my reasons not to. maybe if there was not even the thought in my head that i was only used as a way to forget about their own shit, just maybe i would be okay with it all.ah. what am i doing. I havent had to deal with drama in..omg.. i cant remember!!! why am i gonna start now?? Fuck the drama, and ALL the people who live for it. your mouth is writing checks that yer body cant handle son!

DNR under the penalty of law

okay so i said i would update with details of what i ended up doing last night when i got home at the end of the night..well i didnt get home untill 10:30 this morning. went out to queens hung out with matt, met 2 of his friends, theyre really cool folk. I had fun..... i cant believe im still so awake. came home, couldnt sleep, watched tv and played on the comp all day. took a shower and ate dinner with chris, went back to his house and chilled, watched a movie. I love his mom. and here i am 2am, havent slept in god know how many hours. i havent hung out with aliie and sharon in 2 days. WHOA. next time im off from werk is on sat. i hope something fun is going on fri night. I have yet to get trashed since ive been home. hopefully the opportunity comes. anyways, im gonna go watch some tv and then sleep so PEACE OUT BIATCH!!! ONEEEEE! xoxo

Stupid

ok, i just got home.. i was supossed to be home 1 1/2 hours ago. fuckin bullshit yo. im off tomorrow thats good. Last night was fun, went to a party at tall chris's house, brought sharon. after that I dropped off sharon and chris and i went to charles ave, allie came, then we all went to bagel boss. then i went home cause i had werk. Tonight chris wants me to go to some crazy party. i think i might pass. i dunno this person.. supossed to be crazy. im not feelin it. not today. maybe ill stop by. i dunno. ill update when my nights over. xoxo u fuckin bitch.

90 proof

and so tonight, werked till 8:30pm, went home changed, chris is home. yey. we were gonna hang out but didnt. went to plainjew picked up sharon, ran into allie and lindsey, hung out, flipped out at lindsey about john, i feel bad now, but it was all built up,i upset her. i feel soo bad. i love my sister, but john..fuckin peice of shit scum bag, bum, motherfuckin cocker sucker..peice of shit (again), child lover. dirty..dirty d d dirty. ugh. anyways. supossed to go to a wake tomorrow during the day and then go to tall chris's when darkness falls. my nose has been itchy all day. I should really call jerel.. he prolly thinks i dont care, i havent talked to him in like almost 3 weeks, and i kno its because for the last week i talked to him..i was a total asshole. i feel bad. like seriously. I kno ive hurt him. i was so cold about it all. i dunno. i didnt kno how else to be, i just wanted it to be over, and wasnt thinking about his feelings. i am...i admit it...i am a bitch for how ive been. enough about that. i should really get to sleep...im really excited about my floor next week. and i get to pick up brandons tv. hopefully i get my dell sent to me soon from tx, i have my cable modem staring at me and havent hooked it up cause i want MYYY comp. i hope everything starts coming together damnit. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH yessssssssssssssss! i think one of the dogs is eating my sisters cats!!!!! i hope so. those fuckers shouldnt be downstairs anyways. i swear if i see one of them come downstairs one more time.. im gonna throw my shoes at it. FUCKERS. I hate them all. damn things are gonna kill me one day. BELLLLAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! gotta go. one!

HeHeHe

oooh. okay so tonight after werk i picked up Sharon and we went to Charles ave, all the bellmore boiz cept Brendan were there, i haven't seen them in forever, introduced them to Sharon.. she needed to meet them. had some laughs...mostly with tall chris and oh J J J Jeremy I missed them, didn't realize how much. went to bagel boss at the end of the night. anyways i have werk mad early tomorrow. its 4am i have to be up at 8. So like Monday hopefully goes down. I think Allie died. wheres the fun? too bad..... I KNOW!!!!! okay. gnite. Sharon has a budding crush on my husband...it's okay, I'm not sweatin it, were committed. shes just trying to be a home wrecker. p.s. o-m-g too bad I'm not a slut. I feel life starting to get good.

1-800-921-1049

Dark day. Went to amy's. more bad news. sharon came by. went to 24/7 post office. went to kids house. only remember vinny and ___ bang. finally getting tints. thank you sharon honigman. hoe. came home at 3:30 am. tired. have werk tomorrow. gonna hit up charles ave. hopefully be fun. see bellmore folk. i love bella. i love you. allie didnt chill. she got to drunk last night. hoe #2. i need to drink. no. not need. want. maybe tomorrow. dunno. sharon says ben is fat and ugly. thats funny. maybe not. dunno bout that either. i have werk tomorrow. chris isnt coming home till sunday now. its cool. im tired. i wanna go to the movies. today i missed the idea of having a boyfriend. and then i didnt. ok nite nite.

Make 7 Up Yers

Chris will be home on saturday..he's all done with school, I wonder how things will be now, I've gotten used to him being gone. NO wait that sounded bad.. were still really good friends..used to be together all the time, and it was so hard being so far, but Ive gotten used to it thats all. its cold in here. Tomorrow (well today) I have to go to the cemetery with allie to visit brooke, shes supossed to be 23. Shes been gone for 4 years. Its really hard cause Im older than she was when she died...it just feels so weird, i cant believe it. and it seems like it all happened yesterday, the phone call that morning, the day at the hospital, the emotions..the events that followed. UGH IT FUCKING SUCKS! it fucking sucks.

I Remember

whats good? Today I Went out with matt, went to charles aveA little bit later picked up don't know how to spell his name and back to charles ave allie came..yey. chilled for a little more, Matt's friend and Allie know each other which is cool...they went to the diner and I drove Matt back home. It took me less than 20 mins to get back to plainjew, but by that time they were done with the diner and i met Allie at her house, we went to bagel boss, ran into Craig and talked about *some really funny shit* cough* "jelly donut...gangbang...WHAT??" To bad SHARON has school tomorrow..well today!! Missed some funny talk. boohoo for you! Right now that Christina a song is on where she looks like a big pin cushion for half the video and has a cotton ball on her head the other half. what happened?..don't ask questions. Anyways, its late and I'm gonna try to go to a parade tomorrow, and i have to go to the mall. It wasnt an eventful night at all. but I'm glad i finally saw Matt after who knos who long, we finally for once didn't have conflicting schedules. It was nice to see him again. anyways, i gotta go. xoxo gnite!

We are All Made of Stars

okay, so today I woke up and went to werk to get my check, ran to the bethpage credit union, got my nails done, then SOMETHING ELSE, and then i went to allie's house, then later allie, sharon, amy and I went to the mall and then burger king then walgreens. Then we went back to amy's apartment, looked at some old skewl fuggin pics, i miss those days!!! Amys stayed home and the rest of us went back to plainjew. Rolled..literally took my foot off the gas and put my hazards on and rolled to D&D from a little after Fairway on manetto hill to D&D on old country. Blair called when we got there, so she came out from great neck and chilled. Tonight was fun. I swear we all have welts on our as and hands from slappin twizzlers really hard at each other, stings like a bitch...we did it for like an hour. and then later on in 711 sharon punch me in the stomach for kicking her ass, so i punched her in her boob so hard...I guess i deserved the punch after i threw water all over her in the car...it was pretty funny, water was all over my ceiling and on my back windows..and it was dripping off her face. oh man so many funny things tonight i cant even remember..i dont kno when the last time i laughed so much..i realllllllly needed t laugh like that. I love my cuz and I love my friends. Screw mean people. I'm done with them. Goodbye

Harry Down Syndrome

Steve called me tonight. We need to chill. Theres so many people i havent seen. I called Matt, we need to chill too. I still have to go out to dinner with Alicia. and got Jill's message when I got home, I gotta chill with her. and Jill pennegetti too, she id me and told me she wanted me to come down to the downtown last night and called to see what i was up to.. she had the wrong #! She told me she saw JT there and he told her that himself and I were supposed to be hanging out oon. It would be nice to know about these so called plans that I don't know about..heh. STOP THE BOAT! BELLAS SNORING!!Benji is my friend and sometimes we like to make out. Lauren Mulderick thinks that we got freaky. That my friend is..funny..funny stuff. I'm thirsty and need to go to bed. tahtah. oooooooone!

Pump It Up

Tonight was good. Had Allie and Sharon meet up with me at papiland, dirty cooter went home early. Allie and I tried to do something, but it fell through. I feel pissed off for some reason. I cant put my finger on it, but i think that a couple of people i know are being dumb fuckers. I don't know..fuck em'. I went passed Amy's tonight, she was sleeping. 11pm. LOSER!! I wanna go to city soon. Anyways, I hope tomorrow I am productive. cause i def wasn't today. I need to get my hair done, and my nails..but i have to wait till next week cause me and da momz are gonna go together. I gotta rest my eyes. To everyone I'm annoyed at, I hope they slip in dog poo in front of someone special. ONE!!!!!

Oh My Gawd.

okay so its like really early in the morning or someone who doesnt have werk today. I just got wonderful wake up call!!! Last night Allie and I tried to find a 711 that had a functioning slurpee machine, finally found one all the way in huntington. After that we chilled at Charles Ave, Laura was werking. We played pool for a little bit. Purple's brother James likes to molest my cousin and has this obsession with licking my face like a dog. Laura and I declared that next Sunday is pajama day, so we'll be at charles ave in pj's. oh my gawd im tired. I was thiking last night, I'm like slowly losing friends. and then i was like...i dont care. Tonight I am going out to have hella fun with Allie and Sharon, dont know what the exact plans are, but come on its me, allie, and sharon....and that always spells fun. It looks like today's gonna be nicer than it was yesterday, thank goodnezz. ok..i def need to rest my eyes a little more. toodles.

Cooter for Brains

Watching "While you were out". The lesbo is having the backyard fixed up for her girlfriend.I'm bored. I'm supposed to be going out with Allie and Sharon tonight. I'm kinda tired. I don't know why..I came home at like 5:30am, but i slept until 4pm. I have work early tomorrow..yeey!! Not really. I feel like being crazy tonight. Maybe starting fight. SCORE! Last Allie, Sharon and I went to Charles Ave, played pool it was alright. I gotta go get ready. Laterz